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Wednesday, June 11th, 2003
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12:29 am - quizzes
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| Saturday, June 7th, 2003
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9:15 am - I'm off to Roanoke!! YAY!!!
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| Wednesday, May 28th, 2003
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4:05 pm - Quizzes first
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| Thursday, May 15th, 2003
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8:57 am - Back to work.
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I'd be lying if I said I wasn't a bit nervous about going back to Capital One, but fuck it.. Its a paycheck.
current mood:  blah
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| Monday, May 12th, 2003
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2:20 pm - Hrmm. Plans.
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For those of you who haven't talked to me recently, I'm planning a major life event in September.
Yes, I consider moving 3 hours away a major life event. So nyah.
September 1st I plan on moving to Roanoke. Here's why:
1. I friggin' LOVE the place. Its smaller than Richmond, which is what I'm currently looking for. The cost of living is ridiculously low, you look and everywhere you see the most breathtaking mountains I've ever seen.
2. I can go to college there, ridiculously cheaply. Roanoke/Salem, like Richmond, is desperate for nurses. They can pay for my nursing school if I work for them for X amount of time (2 years). OH GOD NO!!! Don't pay for my education and then guarantee me a job!! HOW COULD YOU.. That would be horrible!!
3. I desperately need a goal for my life currently to get me through. I have been dragging listlessly about for months with no real goal in life. That's bad, m'kay. Moving to Roanoke will be good for my motivation. It already has been in the days since I've made the decision.
4. More free time to concentrate on studying. With fewer distractions (friends are wonderful distractions, don't get me wrong, I'm not griping about anything other than my inability to focus when I have more fun things I could be doing) I will still have a couple of friends up there ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif?v=88.8) stephie26, for example, but I will not have the busy, bustling social life (ha!) that I currently have. I will make new friends up there, but hopefully at school and be able to focus with them. I can't express it correctly, I don't plan on becoming a hermit, but since I can't describe accurately my reasonings behind it, that's where I'm leaving the topic. :)
5. Withdrawing from some of the political messes I'm currently in. Time heals all wounds, or time wounds all heels. take your pick. :) Absence and Absynthe make the heart grow fonder. I'm not running, I'm removing myself from things that are quickly escalating
6. I feel the need to spread my wings a bit. I didn't leave home for college as most of you did (even those of you who stayed in Richmond lived in the dorm for most part). I felt I was too young and had too much keeping me in Richmond (Mark, ugh, my family, etc.). I no longer have those attachments. I think moving to Roanoke for at least 6 months or so will give me the opportunity I've never had. To really know what it is to do things on my own, with no safety net. I need that bit of growing up. If I can't do it, I can come home, defeated, but hope not to have to.
There are other.. incentives, but not reasons.
current mood:  contemplative
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1:09 am - I hate being paranoid
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Usually, when I get paranoid that something's about to happen, I'm right.
That sucks.
current mood:  discontent
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| Tuesday, May 6th, 2003
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3:15 pm
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Went to the Star on Mill Mountain here's a pic from it:
current mood:  content
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| Thursday, April 24th, 2003
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12:04 pm - weird weird dream
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I had a dream that everyone I talked to was bitching because the post office was raising the price of shipping chocolate chip cookies .01.
Later, I was in the car with my mom, and she was PISSED off. We pulled up the post office, and I asked her why she was stopping, and she started swearing a blue streak about having to buy all those GD MF purple 1 cent stamps. I asked her why she was buying them, and she gave me this look like I was nuts, and then suddenly I remembered all the chocolate chip cookies she'd baked to send to our relatives for Christmas. (but it was still april in my dream, and my mom never bakes to send stuff to our relatives).
Uhm Yeah
current mood:  amused
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| Monday, April 21st, 2003
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2:17 pm - read my new book: I'm Ok, You're a Jerk!
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This is going to be a total post of randomness, starting: Tuesday!! oh no dear god not tuesdays with truffles and treants.
T's are very interesting. there's Tea, Tea tree, which gives us tea tree oil, I think, although it could be one of those things like hamburger which doesn't contain anything from an actual ham, but who knows.
Sometimes, I wonder what it would be like to be a turkey. a wild turkey, running through the forest, never able to look up when its raining because I might drown, hiding from stupid hunters during the weeks preceding thanksgiving and christmas.
I ddepend on me, all the women who independant..
Throw your hands up at me. That reminds me of the silly scene in Robin Hood: Men in Tights where Achoo says, "Lend me your ears" and the villeins all chuck their ears at him, and he says in a most hysterically disgusting voice, "That's dis GUSTING" I found that highly amusing.
I want to misssspell things horrribly for a mmmoment or too. And use homophones incorrectly like their going out of style. I'm sure your capppable of understanding my need for a lack of general grammar and stuufff.
I'm going to Roanoke! I'm going to Roanoke! Yah! uhm. ok. I'm now excited about driving three hours to the Back of the Beyond, Va. I'm listening to the locomotion while downloading "Manic Monday" CAN ANYONE GUESS WHY?!?!?
Monkeys, fritters, french fried freakos with farted on hats!
Moose snarkeys.
I want to go to Nags Head. I want to jump in the water and become a dolphin and then go and attack some random surfers. Or anyone who goes fishing on a BEACH WHERE KIDS ARE FRIGGIN Swimming
Come on cOme on do the locomotion with me
It was a one horned one eyed flying purple people eater Sure looked strange to me!! He likes Eating Purple People. Where the fuck are there purple people?
I'm going to become a genetic engineer so I can randomly impregnate people with Oompa Loompas.
I feel special. When I sneeze I sound like an elephant trumpeting sometimes.
current mood: refreshed
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| Monday, April 14th, 2003
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4:13 pm - Extreme Supreme Frustration
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Grandma T went back to the hospital complaining of blurry vision and chest pains. This was not good. I've been at the hospital since approximately 7am. She's better, they're just trying to figure out what it was, but her heart rhythym was a bit off, and it has stabilized now.
Congratulations, thechildoftime I'm so sorry I missed your big day. I wanted to be there. I'll take you out to dinner soon to celebrate. I'm going back to the hospital soon but I'll call you tonight when I get home.
current mood:  worried
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| Sunday, April 13th, 2003
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7:24 pm - Today
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9:43 am - My personality in a nutshell, according to some random website.
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| Tuesday, April 8th, 2003
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6:23 pm
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From post a few days ago:
Could we add a little more stress into, my life, please? Please? I'm not quite suicidal at this point, is there SOMETHING else someone would like to do?
I haven't actually LOST A LIMB at this point. Maybe my new tattoo will get infected horribly, despite my best efforts at keeping it clean, and my foot will be amputated. Or maybe someone else will find a delightful way to hurt me.
I swear to God I didn't mean it. Please, God, don't take her from me. She helped hold me together when I was falling apart, and there's nothing I can do to help her now.
My grandmother had some sort of stroke today, she's paralyzed on her right side, and at last check, didn't know her name. The doctor said it doesn't look good. Please Dear God don't take her from me. Her time can't be done. It just can't be. Please no. I'd rather lose a limb. I'll do anything. I'll never complain again, no matter how bad I feel, just please don't take her from me. Please.
current mood:  distressed
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| Saturday, April 5th, 2003
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8:16 pm - Ok. Two things have been established.
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| Thursday, April 3rd, 2003
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12:33 pm
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Your personality type is ENFP.
Extraverted (E) 100% Introverted (I) 0%
Intuitive (N) 77% Sensing (S) 23%
Feeling (F) 80% Thinking (T) 20%
Perceiving (P) 77% Judging (J) 23%
Never seen 100% on anything, much less Extroversion.. Kinda funny really
( Here's my description.. is it me? )
current mood: amused
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| Tuesday, April 1st, 2003
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1:26 pm - Wonders never cease to amaze me.
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Went to the doctor today, expecting to hear that my recent exhaustion and nausea was related to my medication.
Unfortunetly, I have some interesting news. I'm pregnant. I'm due in September.
Now what the hell do I do?!?!
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| Monday, March 31st, 2003
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10:16 pm - My friends list
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1:20 am - pregnancy test results
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From Spark.com's pregnancy test results, I am going to have
4 children
the first one will be:
Sex: female
Birth weight: 11 lbs. 6 oz.
Length at birth: 5 inches
Chance of mangling birth-defect: 5%
Most likely defect: March of Dimes
11lbs 6 oz and 5 inches long? WTF?!?! I didn't realize March of Dimes was an actual defect, although, I have met a woman who works for them, and I really could see it.
And wow..
Results from the personality test on Spark..
Like just 9% of the population you are a HEALER (SECF)-- caring, good with people, and patient. You are completely selfless and full of love. As a concrete feeler, you do well with your emotions, which are very strong. You understand and appreciate *why* you feel the way you do, and for the most part you're at peace with yourself.
Suffering in the world really pisses you off.
In relationships, it's easy for you to get hurt. Avoid all kinds of dominant (D***) people, *especially* in dating or marriage. You are a motherly figure, even if you're a guy. If you're a girl, make sure you're a mom some day. The world's children need people like you. If you're a guy, don't even think about it. Most pedophiles are HEALERS.
On the rare occasions when you try to assert yourself, you're cute and awkward, but highly effective.
I also took the purity test, and oh goodness.. I'm only 43% pure. 86% of the people that have taken this test are purer than me. oh wow.
current mood:  tired
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| Sunday, March 30th, 2003
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4:15 am - It rained today.
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It rained today, and I was feeling poorly and down, so I did something a bit unconventional. I put on a bathing suit and a pair of shorts and I went and sat on the front porch and marveled at the beauty and the colors of everything. The grass was so green, and the storm blew by relatively quickly, leaving the sky the pure, vibrant blue usually reserved for summer. I let the cool rain slide down my back, getting the occasional chill from the breeze caressing my skin. I sat back, focusing on the relaxation that the world was handing me, and enjoyed it to its fullest. I had originally intended to take a cigarette out, to sit and smoke it and just relax, but I couldn't light it. It seemed cruel and wrong to pollute the freshness of the scene before me.
I watched the birds swoop down, snatching up the worms who'd come up for air from the waterlogged earth. They flew effortlessly to the ground, and after grabbing their feast, swooped into the magnolia tree. The waxy magnolia leaves provided little umbrellas for the birds to enjoy their meal and preen the water from their feathers. A pair of robins had paused at a puddle to splash and bathe, they seemed to enjoy the sprinkling water and their chatters just barely echoed to my ears.
The smell of water evaporating was further relaxing. The occasional breeze brought me the smell of daffodils, the hyacinth that seperates my yard from the neighbor's, and of clean black dirt, soggy with the sudden downpour. The world smelled fresh and clean.
Then I saw it. The most amazing part of the inspiring experience was the silent symphony that played right before my eyes. I watched the rain drop from the magnolia tree onto the grass below, and saw the blades of grass as individual for the first time. A drop of water struck, the grass would vibrate like the strings of a bass. As I watched, I would swear I could hear the music of the grass over the chattering of the birds, the rain plopping softly on the slate tiles that are place in the walkway to the house, and even the movement from inside the house. Watching the symphony play before me, I suddenly felt very right with the world around me. I felt calm, and much more a part of things.
current mood: relaxed
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| Saturday, March 29th, 2003
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3:31 pm - Never say never.
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Went to Anne's. Got INCREDIBLY sick. Horribly, horribly puking drunk sick. This is what happens when you have SEVERAL liquid cocaines followed by an ENTIRE BOTTLE of cuervo minus maybe 2 shots Anne had. Ugh, the thought of liquor makes my stomach turn even now. There were lots of good points of the evening, lots of fun, but right now, as I'm still nauseated, I remember getting sick most.
Thanks, Pash, stupidity + massive amounts of alcohol really teach you who your true friends are, and who's a sympathetic puker.
current mood:  nauseated
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